Monday, September 3, 2012

Where do I go from here?

There is a song out, I believe from 10th Avenue North, that asks "where do I go from here?" There's a raging sea, right in front of me, tries to pull me in, bring me to my knees. I can relate. Sometimes I wonder, "what now?" Where do I go from here? What am I doing? (I ask that one a lot!!)
Sometimes I feel like I am just wandering. I look at everyone else's purpose in life (christian women leaders) and wonder what is mine? I try to take on their purpose, I want to have a blog that reaches millions, I want to inspire women all over the world, I want to lead others in learning the bible.
That's where I am at now. The raging sea in front of me is all the stuff I see and wonder what should I be doing. Then I want to just quit. But wait, isn't that exactly what Satan wants me to do? Quit. He wants me to see every one's successes and my failures. He wants me to see how great other teachers are and how bad I am. He wants me to see everyone else's "perfect" life and my sin and failure. But God wants me to see my success. He wants me to see that He loves me right where I am, in front of the raging sea. He wants me to ask "where do I go from here" because He has the answer. I just have to ask HIM not my flesh.
I may not reach every student in my classroom, I may not lead thousands of women in a bible study, I may not write a book that inspires women everywhere, but God will lead me where I need to go!