Whose Side Are You On?

I am an emotional roller coaster! One day, not wait, one minute I can be laughing and happy and the next I can eat someone's head. What is wrong with me? Why do I react the way I do? Whose side am I on?
If I am on God's side then my emotions do not control me. I am lead by the Holy Spirit who gives me wisdom and guidance to handle every situation. God also provides a new perspective to different situations. Instead of focusing on the bad, or the problem, God will show me the good. That makes difficult situations easier to handle. If I truly believe that He works all things for good then I can handle the situation with a better perspective.
So whose side am I on? The One who will lead me off my roller coaster and carry me through life!

Where do I go from here?

There is a song out, I believe from 10th Avenue North, that asks "where do I go from here?" There's a raging sea, right in front of me, tries to pull me in, bring me to my knees. I can relate. Sometimes I wonder, "what now?" Where do I go from here? What am I doing? (I ask that one a lot!!)
Sometimes I feel like I am just wandering. I look at everyone else's purpose in life (christian women leaders) and wonder what is mine? I try to take on their purpose, I want to have a blog that reaches millions, I want to inspire women all over the world, I want to lead others in learning the bible.
That's where I am at now. The raging sea in front of me is all the stuff I see and wonder what should I be doing. Then I want to just quit. But wait, isn't that exactly what Satan wants me to do? Quit. He wants me to see every one's successes and my failures. He wants me to see how great other teachers are and how bad I am. He wants me to see everyone else's "perfect" life and my sin and failure. But God wants me to see my success. He wants me to see that He loves me right where I am, in front of the raging sea. He wants me to ask "where do I go from here" because He has the answer. I just have to ask HIM not my flesh.
I may not reach every student in my classroom, I may not lead thousands of women in a bible study, I may not write a book that inspires women everywhere, but God will lead me where I need to go!

The Thief

Habakkuk 2:1 I will stand at my watch post; I will remain stationed on the city wall. I will keep watching, so I can see what He says to me and know how I should answer when he counters my argument.

I will stand my watch post! This verse was preached this last Sunday at church. I have really thought about the verse. This is my job. To stand my watch post. To not fall asleep. To remain active and alert so as the thief cannot come in and overtake my territory.
When we become inactive, or asleep, things start to creep into our lives. We do not notice the little "oks". It's ok to watch this tv show. It's ok to watch this movie. The lyrics to this song are ok. It's ok just this once. When we stop our watch and become inactive we allow the thief a chance to break in. Cracks start to form in our wall. As a crack starts, if it is not taken care of, it will get larger. Sardis had cracks in their wall that remained un-taken care of and became so large a man could fit through. The city was overtaken not just once but twice in the night because of being "asleep".
I will stand my watch post! Over my life, my house, my job, everything. In order to not fall asleep I have to remain active. I have to stay in the word. I have to stay in prayer, "I will keep watching, so I can see what He says to me". I have to be alert. The thief is waiting for me to fall asleep. He is waiting for me to leave my cracks unattended.
I will stand my watch post!